'’You are an addict that is going
through withdrawal right now.’’ Those words slapped me right in my face. I am
not a drug addict, I am not hooked on alcohol and I am not loving
reality TV. My drug of choice are men. Males have been my painkiller for
half of my life. They distract me, comfort me, make me feel special and
beautiful, filling the void that only Jesus can fill. The truth is, I never
really learned how to breathe without male attention.
My entire youth I made an idol out
of having a boyfriend, needing someone to complete me, thinking I am not worthy
without someone to hold me. I tried to
satisfy myself by getting lost in someone’s arms, thinking that my reason for
existing is to feel desired. How wrong I was!
Today I am a recovering
maleaholic. Every day I give my pain, disappointments, my idol and my
loneliness to God. He can have all my broken pieces, all the lies, all the
toxic thoughts and beliefs that have captured my life for so long.
Most of us have an idol in our
lives and unless your idol is Jesus, you need to get your stunning self into
rehab. The world we live in, satan and your own selfish cravings give you the
false hope of security and independence. You are chained to the desire to be
rich or skinny, to be married or have premarital sex, in bondage of food or
shopping. That empty feeling, that longing for more! It can only be filled by
God. You can buy five hundred pair of shoes, or be with the richest man out
there, even drop dead gorgeous is not going to stuff that void.
We as humans were created to
worship, to fall in love, to be loved back. Unfortunately somewhere along the
way sin and your messed up thinking got everything twisted. Now you rather
worship Channing Tatum instead of the One who so beautifully created you.
So you constantly run around like
a crazy chick, chasing after a life that will never complete you. God is the
only One who you should adore and devote your life too. He comes first, second
and third. No man will ever be able to
fill you up. Only the pure holiness of Jesus can bring you the joy and fulfillment
you so desperately long for.
What are you chasing after? If it
is not Jesus, girl it is time to go into rehab!!!
''Yes, God loved the world so much that he gave his only Son,
so that everyone who believes in Him would not be lost but have eternal life."
John 3:16
''Yes, God loved the world so much that he gave his only Son,
so that everyone who believes in Him would not be lost but have eternal life."
John 3:16
LOVE JEN
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