Idols, Shoes and Boys

'’You are an addict that is going through withdrawal right now.’’ Those words slapped me right in my face. I am not a drug addict, I am not hooked on alcohol and I am not loving reality TV. My drug of choice are men. Males have been my painkiller for half of my life. They distract me, comfort me, make me feel special and beautiful, filling the void that only Jesus can fill. The truth is, I never really learned how to breathe without male attention. 

My entire youth I made an idol out of having a boyfriend, needing someone to complete me, thinking I am not worthy without someone to hold me.  I tried to satisfy myself by getting lost in someone’s arms, thinking that my reason for existing is to feel desired. How wrong I was!

Today I am a recovering maleaholic. Every day I give my pain, disappointments, my idol and my loneliness to God. He can have all my broken pieces, all the lies, all the toxic thoughts and beliefs that have captured my life for so long.

Most of us have an idol in our lives and unless your idol is Jesus, you need to get your stunning self into rehab. The world we live in, satan and your own selfish cravings give you the false hope of security and independence. You are chained to the desire to be rich or skinny, to be married or have premarital sex, in bondage of food or shopping. That empty feeling, that longing for more! It can only be filled by God. You can buy five hundred pair of shoes, or be with the richest man out there, even drop dead gorgeous is not going to stuff that void.

We as humans were created to worship, to fall in love, to be loved back. Unfortunately somewhere along the way sin and your messed up thinking got everything twisted. Now you rather worship Channing Tatum instead of the One who so beautifully created you.

So you constantly run around like a crazy chick, chasing after a life that will never complete you. God is the only One who you should adore and devote your life too. He comes first, second and third.  No man will ever be able to fill you up. Only the pure holiness of Jesus can bring you the joy and fulfillment you so desperately long for.

What are you chasing after? If it is not Jesus, girl it is time to go into rehab!!!

''Yes, God loved the world so much that he gave his only Son,
so that everyone who believes in Him would not be lost but have eternal life."
John 3:16

LOVE JEN

You are so Loved

There are days when we need to hear Double Truths about Gods Love for us. The days when the enemy is trying to kick you and will place lies in your head, to keep you from all God wants you to become. Today was one of those days for me. I needed to be reminded how crazy in love God is with me and that my worth will always be in Jesus and never in people. This letter is written from a loving God to you! It is my personal journal entry but may it encourage you to never forget who has you in the palm of His hands.

My beloved child,

I know that sometimes you think you are not enough. I know there are days where you feel left alone and shattered by the enemy. I also know that sometimes you just want to cry, give up and turn your back on me.  If you would only know how much I care for you! I am always here, holding you when you feel like you can’t breathe. I am sitting right beside you touching your hand and catching every tear that falls from your eyes. I weep when you weep and my heart fills with joy when I see you smile. I want you to know that even though you feel pain and broken hearted right now, there is nothing that you cannot overcome with my strength.  I send my son Jesus to die for you, so you know how priceless and unending my love is for you. I want you to fall in love with Him. He would sacrifice His life all over again, just to set you free from the bondage you are in. I send Him so you can be free of men’s approval, the desire to be wanted, cherished and needed. If you would only know how much you are already adored. I send Him so you can be restored to the way I always intended it to be. I want you to be free of pleasing others and the world you live in. I want you to be fully depended on me, every minute of every day. You have nothing to fear and nothing to worry about. The pain is temporary, I will be eternal. Always remember living in a broken world with broken people will cause suffering and rejection. Don’t turn away from Me now, don’t go back to your former self.  I chose you, you are my masterpiece, created for a specific plan that only you can fulfill. But my daughter, you need to trust Me completely. You need to stop listening to satan’s voice in your head and the opinions of people. You need to be fully secure and free in Me. Finding your complete worth, freedom and peace in Me, your heavenly Father. Humans will constantly disappoint you. Some won’t show you their brokenness, they won’t share their struggles with the world. People sometimes try to keep up the perfect picture on social media, covering up their fears and the nights when they cried out to Me for help. Even though I am strong when men are weak , humans still like to paint a life full of roses and butterflies, hiding their faces behind the veil. Trust me, everyone struggles and until you see Me face to face you are going to have to put on my armor, pick up my weapon and fight every single day. I gave you all the tools to stand firm against the enemy. Once you accepted my Son Jesus you became part of my Family. And in my Family we fight with Holy Spirit authority. The same power that rose from the dead dwells within you. You have Holy Spirit super powers.  Now you have to rethink years of your life, reprogram your mind and pick up your sword. Satan doesn’t like that you are mine now. He hates it and will continuously lie to you. He is scared of the influence you now have on furthering the Kingdom of Love. He will use every lie in the book to deceive you. Remember I am for you, so nobody can be against you. My plan for your life will require you to be bold, fearless and fully dependent on Me. You are now Love and Hope in a broken world. You are pure, holy Love, different than the rest of creation. Stop worrying about people and start loving them instead. Be my child of Love every day. Live your life so people are drawn to you, just because you sparkle with Jesus Love. Remember whose you are, remember the price Jesus paid for you. I love you, not because you did anything for me but because you were always a part of me.  Don’t judge others, always remember you were once lost and then found. I want to use you as my vessel, and love people exactly for who they are. You are mine, because your heart breaks for what breaks mine. You are mine, because you fight against injustice. You are mine because you are not afraid to speak Truth in love. You are mine, because you shine in the darkness. Always seek me, keep your eyes on me, read my promises and love every single soul you come in contact with. Remember you are worth dying for and you are enough.

GOD